Sometimes, we get upset at God or the one we believe in for not granting our every prayer. Today, while I would have been more than thankful for a pregnancy this month; I am understanding as to why it did not happen. (Or at least, assuming this allows me to feel somewhat better). Today, my wife and I along with many family members and friends are preparing for Hurricane Mathew. With our house boarded up, canned food for days and a bulk of water stock we await the hurricane’s arrival.
It is funny how life works, God knows it isn’t easy. When you get married, you not only commit yourself to one single person but also to a life of faith, trust, trial, error, good and bad. There’s a lot of stress over life, because when you’re married neither of you can say one has it harder; you learn how to support each other the best you can and hope that it’s enough. When we found out we weren’t pregnant this month, Nikki did exactly that- she held me when I couldn’t deal and because of her strength during my weakness, we’re ok.
Marriage is funny, you see your other half through so much. There are days of madness, sadness, stubbornness and at times, things can become so unbearable – you want to just scream! But, marriage is also beautiful, you are able to see the person you love through their best moments, when it’s the middle of the night and you’re both wide awake while the rest of the world is asleep; you see the side of them no one else does and no, it’s not always pretty but I’ve learned in our journey, marriage is one of the most rewarding jobs outside of parenting there is; because at the end of the day, if you’re lucky; you get to crawl into bed with your best friend, the weirdest – most annoying, loving, goofy person you know. Marriage isn’t very beautiful, but it’s one heaven of a ride.
Today, I’m beyond thankful for our journey. The doctor has prescribed me a higher dosage of hormones for the upcoming week and while we are still broken hearted we will hold one another up for another try to begin our family.
Many prayers for anyone in Florida during this hurricane, may God protect you, your homes, and the ones you love.